I wish I had the power to ignore you like you ignore me

Thou it was a joke, it have been ages since we laughed like that together..



They made a joke out of us, and although it was 6 years back but till now this things is still quite embarrassing har? Thats' one of our lil memories =)

A Tear is made of 00.01 % Water & 99.99 % Feelings

I read through "Unspeakable words", which made me started tearing again.. If I know, I wouldnt have read it.. Joke arh!

Do you know that each time when I get to see you, each time I'll get drunk?
因为没有说清楚也没有好好的做个结束，所以才会这样吗？

Im missing you but there's nothing much I can do...

where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which i find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, falling in at night. I miss you

Went DF last night and I saw someone whom I didn't expected to see.. Almost couldn't recognise him as it have been ages since I last saw him..

I looked at him a few times before I was sure.. Bernard Chua! Someone whom I used to hang out with, with him.. He changed a lot or should I say he is much fitter compared to e past.. We chatted for awhile and den I realised, time flies, period! His eldest son is 7 this year.. I even went to his baby's shower at that point of time.
But I'm sad to hear from him that he and wifey are filing for divorce now. It's a pity.. He said "有时候做朋友反而更好＂ Well, maybe it's true but .... :

Jessie MSG me recently and informed that she and Ong have signed e paper. I'm shocked to know of this news as I thought they have made up!

如果要离婚的话为何要结婚呢？Regards to this qns, some of my friends reply, you wont be able to predict wad's going to happen in future.. But shouldnt both parties try harder to maintain their rs if they knew things have gone abit haywire? Aiyah, relationship are so complicated.. =(

Anyway, all I can hope for them is they will be much happier in e future

Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always fair. However you must keep smiling & moving on

My friend shared this post on FB which I finds it very meaningful



他和她已经分手两年了。两年来他每天下班习惯性地打开她的博客，看看她一天的心情。她有时候高兴，有时候失落……他只是默默地注视着，不做一点评论，甚至删掉了浏览记录。直到有一天她博客上挂满了她的婚纱照。下面有一行小字：“我嫁人了，不等你了，不更新了。” =(

Time wait for no men.. Cherish and speak out your heart, for one day you might realised that its no longer around...

Woke up early today to wait for Singtel's installation people to come over as I applied for new Internet services..
My BF, R, drag me to IMM as it was still early. Thinking maybe he wanna go have breakfast so I tag along with him and to my surprise, he wanted to buy me a new lappy as Ive been using my current one for 6 years+? Yes, Ive a old dinasour lappy with me.. He's kinda sweet lah, cos he say its time for me to change cos he knew that sometimes I used my lappy till very pek chek.. I went to take a look at a few but decided to give it a miss as I totally have no ideas wad lappy and specs Im looking for..

Learning to be more appreciative of him, to understand him more although at times, he really will make me angry cos we have different thinking.. White Iphone 4S, im coming for u in another few days time :D

Happy 2012!

Happy 2012!






Spend my 2011 last day with friends at Hollywood.. Love all of them to bits.. I haven been partying this often with GFs..

Didnt expected Liang to come down and look for me and also was shocked that he came along too.. I looked through the old photos, realised that we all look different, maybe due to our age, maybe things really changed. Even my friends say you changed alot. Abit upset but it's good cos you changed for the better.

And yes, I know.. Ive been visiting Thai disco abit too often recently but den my that group of Gfs wanted to go therefore.... Bo bian!

Cling to your imperfections, they are what make you unique.

Happiness!






Its just a drama show but by looking at all these photos, it gave me a sense of happiness and actually wakes me up.. As I aged, I forgotten this theory; that happiness can actually be so simple =)

MK recommended me to this show... He said the female lead in the show resemble me. He said e way she speak and behave in this show looks like me.. When I watch e first ep, I do not think so but gradually.... Haa.. Im still halfway into the show but I kinda like this show..

Last 2 days, I was at Vincent's place for MJ.
The first day when I went over, he was still MJ-ing with his ex-student and his ex-student's friends. This particular ex-student of his, caught my attention. Why? I also donno... Haa!
His back was facing me when I stepped into the house. Maybe because he was wearing that " blue sleeveless PTI..?" As it was still 南风, I loiter around the table to watch them play. The way that group of guys talks, the way they played / touch the MJ and so more, reminds me of the past. It have been a long time since a guy managed to catch my attention. Probably it was the way he smiled and his look. He does look and behave slightly like him, slightly.. But this guy are more muscular.. :) But I guess and feel, its definitely got nth to do with K. I think I've a fetish for uniform and short-haired guy.. Wahhaha! Just kidding.. Anyway, I donno how the conversation end up but before that guy left, he told me his age, 25, same age as me..
Thereafter, Vincent told me that this particular guy and the other 2 pals that he bought along are in the service. Haa.. Maybe thats the reason why watching them MJ, reminds me of days in 304A or even days at Tham's place =)
The next day when I went over to Vincent's place, he told me that the same group played during noon time and he wanted me to help him revenge on MJ as for the 2 days, he lost about 1K to them as this particular group play 1,2. I told him, maybe 他们看我是女孩子，他们会 give chance to me. Vincent reply was: Ya loh, i think they will cos this noon, the other 2 guys disturb that particular guy, 看女人看到打错牌. Ofcos I asked Vincent why they said so? He said, the moment I reach, that particular guy gave out twice 5 double.. Haa! I cant imagine that I still have this kind of charm.. Wahhaha!

I met up with the 2 irritating buddies of mine today at Suntec, MK and Ong for dinner..

I think I get to know and finally understand something today. Sadden yet released; at least its a breakthrough for me =) Contented.. 终于明白，终于能解脱了
一言惊醒梦中人

我：我不明白为什么他能和她出门但为何不能和我？我也已经没有在和他说什么了嘛.
他：你自己有没有想原因？
我: 没有。想了但又不知道
他：Haiz -_-"
他：也许，他爱/喜欢她。对你，已经没有那种感觉。不想让你误会所以避开你。他喜欢她，才会跟她出门。
我：但是她不是明年就要结婚了吗？
他：他以前对你也是这样啊。他以前也是希望你有一天会回心传意，不是吗？也许他是在希望她明年不会结婚？
我：…. 也对啦
他：他也都承认他是一个重色轻友的人啊。我觉得我好像做了坏人。你现在觉得Ok 吗？
我：还好啦。没事！谢谢你让我知道，谢谢你让我明白，所以我也不会再乱想了，我也会真正 move on。
他：但这些都是我自己的想法，可能也不是他的.
我：No lah, 听你这么说，我觉得也对啦，不然还会有什么原因。这个是最好的答案啊！
他：你觉得你这样对你男朋友公平吗？
我：我知道我这样是对他很不公平但是你今天让我领会的事，我以后可以好好地对待他也不晚啊。我知道我的男朋友真的对我很好。只是以前没有人向我解释，我也不知道为什么所以一直在dingdong.. 哈哈。谢谢你。

虽然不是出于他本身但从别人的口中听到了，心真得很痛。有点想哭的感觉但我很感谢他对我这么诚实。我也不会再执迷不悟，不会再认为他还在。只能怪以前的我，不懂得珍惜，不懂得的等待。现在他的心属于别人了，我也只能袖手旁观。像很多很多人所说的，我和他真的是没有缘分吧！虽然很不甘心可是我真的要学习让自己死心！

I admit, I really miss how things used to be. But I also admit, that I’m learning to accept the fact that things changed.

You lied. You disappointed me. We have always been nothing but a joke.




Do I really have to face up to reality and really say good-bye to you? :(



Opt to learn to love and cherish what is present and in the future instead of dwelling into a past that is unattainable.

I went to do my hair today and Liang came down to look for me.
I miss e days whereby whenever I made e appt to do my hair and someone will be there waiting to look at my end result without complaining e amt of time e person wasted while waiting for me.

Many times, I would tot of doing something stupid which is like posting a date and see if you would turn up for e appt. idiotic right?

A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have

Pre-Christmas celebrations with my BFFs...





The ones that never fail to make my day, the ones that will always be there for me... Love you girls..

We'd our pre-Christmas celebration at MBS Hotel on 14th December.. Our 1st year celebrating Xmas in a hotel and all of us managed to have a sleepover together! Its our 1st time okay?! My GFs are so sweet, specially brought beer for me as they knew I cant take vodka.. :D

Look at the number of video we took while playing Twister, Im so glad that all of us had so much fun and laughter together! Also not forgetting, the log cakes and the liquor!

You are the apple of my eye

Love this show...



I find it so realistic and touching.. Heard that its based on real life story.. 那些年, 我們一起追的女孩

Life.... is full of choices for us to choose...
There's no right or wrong choices.. Whenever you make a decision, in the later part, you might or will tends to think back, whether is it the right one? But I guess the choices that was choosen was the best available choice back then but if given a choice, will you still choose the same choices?

Watching the show, make think back even more.. 如果那时候我这么做或者我那么做，会是什么后果。

Some parts in the show, felt so much like my own life... Haa!

1. 被你喜欢去过的我，很难会觉得别人会比你更喜欢我。
2. 或许，在另一个平行时空里，我们是在一起的. 真羡慕他们


我真的好想你哦！我肯定的是。。我想的是我在那时认识的你而因该不是现在的你。那时的你，不曾离开过我，那时的你，不会放弃我，那时的你，不会摆架子，那时的你，才是真真爱我的你。我真的好想紧紧抱者你。我真的很想知道你的答案，你的心里到底是在想什么。是否你最近所说的都是真的，如果是的话，我想我也不要再拖拖拉拉了。如果不是的话，你能否告诉我呢？好让我们不要再浪费彼此的时间！



I really think this is a good show, caused I watch it twice!

Dont be afraid to go after what you want to do, and what you want to be. But dont be afraid to be willing to pay for the price.

Actually i donno if i should feel happy or upset but i know it doesnt feel good to be recognize by someone u donno as his friend's ex plus the someone's gf also knew who u was n yr name..

Should I be happy bcos he told his friends who I was or should I be upset bcos I was his past? My say: Sux to the max..