三分钟热度的我

Perhaps the problem lies within me myself. Nothing seems to be able to catch my attention for long.

Im already very sick and tired of all this. I need and want to make changes to my life but I need time thou I donno how long I will take..
1/2 a month, 1/2 a year or 1 year?

Its just a matter of time for people to move on, for people to forget, for the necessary changes...

Mentally drained...

Happened to see this online.. Nice =)

如果有一天我消失了，你会不会害怕会不会发了疯地找我？然后因为找不到我而难过?
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在家里呆呆地坐着，傻傻地掉着泪等我？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会锁起日记，只为我开，只为我留言？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会每天无数次地点击我的空间，看我来过的痕迹？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会认真的用心看着我空间的每篇文章？然后发觉我其实挺爱你！
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在半夜突然醒来，想我想到泣不成声？无法入眠？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会每天开着Q，开着游戏等我？
如果有一天我消失了，当你看到好友上线时会不会一阵紧张，以为是我？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会看着无聊的肥皂剧流泪？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在街上走的时候想到我，想到蹲在地上哭泣？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会像上面我说的一样去做？
如果有一天你消失了，以上就是我的写照，如果你爱我，你也一定会，是吗？

如果有一天我消失了，不是因为我不爱你了，是因为我身不由己。
如果有一天我消失了，你一定要好好照顾你自己，不要再让我担心你。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我怕见到你，怕你告诉我你即将离去。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我心已死，需要有人来将那一道道伤痕抹去。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我得不到你的吻你的拥抱你的爱...

曾经以为恋爱就要轰轰烈烈一旦触动就一发不可收拾。
可是现实总是残酷，时间总是折磨人。
美好的时光总是很短暂 ，而长时间的美好却又是将来痛苦的根源。
回忆总是捉弄人，人总是被牵着走。
不管是男人女人大人小孩老人，都被玩弄于手掌。
如果有一天我消失了 ，你也不会找我的吧。
你会顺其自然等我出现，还说勉强没有幸福，该怎样就怎样世界上没有什么了不起的东西。
是啊...
我们已经不再年轻 ，不是以前冲动的小孩。
渐渐成熟懂得思考什么有利，什么没用。
不会再象以前那样傻傻的等，傻傻的追。

有时候，爱情会成为一种习惯。
习惯去照顾一个人，习惯被一个人照顾，习惯某个时间他出现，习惯某个时间他离开。
但往往，习惯是最可怕的东西。
如果有一天，他突然不在了...
第一天，你会觉得很庆幸，有一种被解放的自由。
第二天，没什么感觉，还可以很快乐。
第三天，心里好象少了点什么，心惶惶的，带着一些不安。
慢慢的，寂寞，孤独会象排山倒海一样袭来。
感觉做什么都不对，好象身体少了一部分，心空空的。
怎么样也填不满，怎么样也开心不起来。
终于，习惯，变成了，不习惯...
如果有一天我消失了，不能在你身旁照顾你，你会习惯吗？
也许是因为太在意所以才会太担心离开。
如果真的要离开，我不是害怕自己难过，而是害怕没有人能好好的照顾你，帮你分担。
如果有一天我消失了，请你一定要比我幸福。

亲爱的，如果我消失了，这将是我的遗书...
这是我第一次这样叫你，也可能是最后一次！
如果有一天我消失了，我还没告诉你其实我一直都在一个网站每天都写下对你的思恋和牵挂...
如果有一天我消失了，我还没有来得及告诉你，我真的准备和你一起走完此生...
如果有一天我消失了，我看不到有谁会为我哭泣，为我伤心！我想象有你，却无法证实。
如果有一天我消失了，有谁会来为我完成心里头一直放不下的事...
我以为我是一个视生命于不屑的人，是一个对生命没有眷念的人，但就在今天我忽然发现自己对死亡的恐惧，原来我也只是一个偶尔会发神经质的普通女人，无法做到无牵无挂的消失人间...
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会知道其实你是很爱我，其实你是真的很在乎我的？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会一直等我？等我回到你身边...

是不是我真的消失了你才会发现身边还有个我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会想起来很想珍惜我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会知道怎么样来爱我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会感觉到当初我爱你？
是不是我真的消失了你才会舍得给我一私可怜？
是不是我真的消失了你才会明白你真的失去了？
是不是我真的消失了你才会懂得什么是真的爱？
是不是我真的消失了你才会伤心到想要再爱我？

Happy 23rd birthday Ms Tan :)

Good things just happen when you least expected it

Angela told me: 童话并不是虚构， 只是看你有没有心去做

True, 只要有决心总有一天，童话也有可能会变成实现但是 will that day ever come? Im not saying that I do not belive in fairytales anymore. I still do but something just make me feel that maybe its way better for 童话 to remain as it is =)
在我心中童话依然是一件很美很幸福的事.

Im going to "Play" this weekend.. =)

I wanna party !!!

In another 3 weeks time, its gonna be my birthday..
Coming soon to 23 yr old this year..

Im planning a birthday present for myself.. A short getaway in the nearby country for myself by myself. It may not fall on Sept but probably on Oct'09..
Looking out for the best deals in town...

Im meeting No.1 and No.4 to go clubbing this Friday but I will be working on the following Sat.. Oh Gosh! Anyway, I decided to go ahead bcos No.1 seldom jio this kind of activities mah.. I hope that we wouldnt party till too late! They said whoever back off, shall bear the whole outing cost.. Haa!

=) Baby Claire has arrived.. Glad to know that she is a healthy and lovely baby from Sherry.. Once I recover from my flu, Im gonna pay them a visit..

Another happy issue that happens in the month of Aug is Farn and Lijun are holding their customary on this coming sept... Was pretty shocked to hear that they are going to hold their customary as I have always knew them as a married couple bcos they have already ROM for 5 - 6 years!

Sometime life can be very complicated but sometime it can be simple also..
Sometime happiness can be just within reach but ppl choose to ignore it bcos they desire something more.. The pursuit of happiness? We gotta catch it ourself.
Often people attempt to live their lives backwards but the fact is we cant..
Out of difficulties, make miracle...

Quote

to fall in love is always easy
to start a relationship is always simple
to build it, is always tough
to maintain it, is 'better said than done'
to break off, is 'easier said than done'
to remain friends after u broke off, is never possible
to forget the memories is 'always doing but never succeeding'

Met up with Becky and MK for lunch yesterday noon since we are all working in the vicinity. We are planning for an outing this Saturday. Our planning is to go for some window shopping at Suntec and also to look for Jessie and when nightfall, we can have some drinking / MJ session at Becky hse.

Been on Skype with them eversince MK started working on Vtech. Its nice having companion to talk to when u are bored at office.

Last night went for a late supper with my gals @ west coast mac… I love my gals.. Really been trying to make an effort to meet up with them whenever I can.. I really cherish them

Quiz

I feel this is so true for me


往好處想你是一個總是向前看的人，既然逝者已矣，再來當然是來者可追啦，對於無法挽回的事，你也不會太過強求，你相信，強摘的果子是不會甜的.但是在別人眼裡，不免覺得你有些寡情，好像一旦發生了什麼事，你就會頭也不回的走人。或許偶爾你也會覺得懊悔，某些其實還大有可能的事物，就這樣被你放棄了，與其如此，不如在下判斷時多花點時間想一想，什麼才是你不悔的決定呢？...

溫柔是你性格中的寶藏。你不喜歡顯山露水，情緒容易波動，很在乎周圍人的想法和感受。你常為別人的不快樂而焦慮，恨不得立刻去幫助他，因此你的人緣不錯。可是當你自己碰到困境時，卻常常往壞處想，是悲觀的女生，不小心還有習慣性的自怨自艾。在心上人面前你不太會積極主動，只能默默付出，等待對方注意到你。要是有朋友和你喜歡上同一個對象，你可能還會退讓成全他們。這樣的態度，會讓你離幸福越來越遠，一定要小心哦！...

你是一個失去以後就會覺得後悔的類型的人，所以你最唸唸不忘的人不是別人，是最近的失去的人。例如上一個戀人，你會因為失去而懊惱不已，但凡是因為你自己的原因而失去的人，你就會一直記挂著他們，卻忽略了在你身邊的人。經常會顧此失彼，你是在交往和分開的時候沒有想到，分開後才知道自己多麼在乎的人。...

Night out to BQ

I went out to meet Farn and gangs at Paradize centre..

Kelly was there as well..
I don feel like blogging today.. See the photos ba...


My very 1st photo taken with Kelly.

Farn told me just a few ppl gathering only.

I didnt know that were such a huge group.. If i know, i sure wont go down moreover it was like "farewell gathering" for Derrick as he is gg for POC course. Thou i know some of them but not very close mah and I very anti-social one.. Wahahah..

Anyway some of the new friends that I made... Kenneth, malvin and gf..


Kelly and Me and the 2 clowns behind..


The pub at Paradize closed at 1am? Den we moved on to Blue Blaze..
Another pub which I used to freq as well..

The ladies..


Mr and Mrs Bae Lei Ko


Me & Lijun


I miss her.. havent seen her for 3 mths!

Me and Jessie


Kev, Ong, Minde

Donno why but 2 of them said that I look different.. Gave them a different feelings.. Perhaps pretty? wahhaaha... Jus kidding

Went home at 4+am.. Slightly high..

MJ @ Moon hse

Happy National Day, Singapore!

Spent my Saturaday night at Moon hse (NorthVale Condo) playing MJ..

Thats Ailun, Me, Jing, Moon sitting down chaning coins for us and Xin taking pictures of us..


We played MJ for awhile and chit chatted the night away, with the company of 3 bottle of wines..
I cant imagine that we can talk all the way till today morning 830am -_-"

Thou it was very tiring but I enjoyed myself...

BFFs Celebration

Jus woke up from my nap and here I am blogging on my wonderful weekend spent..

As planned, BFFs have all make ourselves free on 2nd August. We have also applied for additional day of leave on 3rd August in order to celebrate our friendship day..

A celebration to our 14 or even more years of together-ness...
We met up at 12pm and had our lunch at Vivo City, Sushi Tei



Thereafter we went on to Cold Storage & Dennis Wine to buy stuffs that we will need; like tibbits & wine to last us the night at Sentosa..

Proceed to the Monorail Counter and gotten our free tix as we have booked a hotel room with them.


The very typical friendster/FB photo


Welcome to Sentosa!


Donno what is she doing.. Probably promoting the wines that we have bought.. Probably her sign of chiong-ing to the hotel

3 ladies = 1 market
4 ladies = Disaster

Check into our hotel 1st... Siloso beach resort, the garden roof suites!

The 1st thing that we do upon entering the room is we all headed straight up to the Jacuzzi rooftop..!


We are very happy bcos this is the very 1st time we spent time together.. I mean a short getaway together..

The nice and queen size bed.. Abit crampy thou to contain the 4 of us but it still okay as we arent very big size.

We rested awhile on the bed and Jing knock out within 10 secs..

The 3 of us carry on with our hilarious acts



I like the below photo alot =)


Us looking cool



We then get our ass out of the cozy room and went for Luge Ride


We have a lil bet going on here.. Loser shall treat drinks.. Hehe

Jing looking so stiff and scare while taking the skyride up..


Even thou we were seated in 2 different benches but we still managed to take photos together..




Yea, thats me... =P

Didnt managed to capture any photos during our 1st ride as Jing went off earlier but eventually, Bee, Xin and Me catch up with her and while waiting for her, we took a pic

Jing asking for help as she was struck.. The ride wont move...

She complained that she isnt going to play the ride anymore as she was scare but we say No to her request as we bought the tix for 2 rides in total. She was being persuaded by us therein, here we are..

Our 2nd ride

Mine and xin

We went Siloso Beach for a walk and gotten a passerby to take this photo for us...

Some of our self-timer photos

Super-models in town.. Wahaha

Jacuzzi that face the sea! We managed to watch sunset to evening falls together.. A very nice view..

Our red wine floating with the water...

We decided to try some super FHM move

The above is the best shots we can get.. It was so hard to get the best view and very tiring.. Haa!

We dry ourselves up and went Cafe De Mar for our dinner..

Starting from the eldest... Wahahah

Bee

Me

Jing

Xin

=)

Our dinner arrived...

My ladies, My fairies...

Some AngMos offered to get us a round of drinks..

That was very nice of them but there was one very talkative Mexican who chatted non-stop and soon we find him to be irritating.. -_-"

We seek his pals help to bring him away den we sneak away.. wahahaha..

Back into our room, we went to 泡澡 again and chatted there..

Our bra and panties and the LV bags... wahahah...

Us in our sleepwear

Once again, Jing fallen asleep at close to 1am while the rest of us chit chatted our night away..

Ms chen kept me and bee up till 5am? I very long nv tong night till so late lor!

Me...

Checkout of the hotel at 12pm.. And we headed over to Vivo again for LJS..

Good time always passes fast.. But there will definitely be more chances for us to have a short getaway..

Anyway what matters the most is the 4 of us are together.. They are a joy to have, to hold on althou at time they can be very LOUD.. wahhaha.. Love my gals lotsa..