29 March 2009

Gathering

Some bo liao updates...
I changed my blog song again.

Have you ever???

** Thurs 27/3/09 **

Met up with Ray this noon for coffee at Mt Faber Safra. He changed car again.
That guy is out of army, now working in DWG. So I guess nowadays, he is more free.

He said, Im constantly repeating the same sentences over the years. That I knew him for close to 6 years already yet it seems like I knew him for 1/4 of the time frame as he always go MIA..
He said, I feel different. I am not the usual me. Was I? Lolz

I also met up with Ashley, Ber on Thursday night at Rail way mall. It has been 3 years since I last saw Ashley. That gal, she is still very slim!

Kev came over to meet up with us for awhile.
Chit chat till 12+ and home sweet home.

** Fri 27/3/09 **

I took a long break today. Went to office thereafter at 11am, I went back home to R&R. Passed ah ma some NTUC voucher which I gotten for her and Dad, his birthday present. I gotten him a hp. Thou not multi-function but at least it can replace his current.

Later in the part of day, I received a sms from Mum. She say Dad is very happy, Im glad to hear that as well =)

Ray called me for lunch at TBP. I agreed but was kinda surprised as when I came out of the lift, he was at the lift lobby and he passed me rochor bean curd and soyamilk for my family.

Went back to office only at 4+pm. Hehe
But anyway, I've make up my mind. With or without job, I will leave here by late April.

Im so packed with activities today. MJ at 830pm, after which Im gg to Becky's bday at Club Fabulous.

Ber arranged for MJ at Ashley's plc.
Very long didnt MJ with them le thou I lost the game but I enjoyed it.

The game ended at 1230am, I kept persuading Ber to send me down but he refuse as he said he is very sleepy plus he need to wake up early the following day.

While waiting for the lift, Ben told me I send u down lor. I feel so paiseh lor as this is the 1st day I get to know him yet he is willing to send me down (We were at Sembawang, he is staying at CCK, Im gg down to Club St) even thou it was not convenient and we have consumed some alcohol while MJ-ing except for Ber.
So nice of him =)
Throughout the trip, we chatted and I came to find out that Ben also have to wake up early the following day and he shared the same bday as me thou he is older ofcos.

Ben was kinda taken aback when he knew I was Ashley's ex-bf friend. He said, didnt expect still able for ex-bf friends to be in contact. I told him, its not hard but it depends on how you view it. Cause throughout your years togetherness with your then bf, you also build up relationship with both parties friends. Couldnt bcos you part with your ex, den you also lost your friendship right? Relationship don come easy. It take fates for ppl to meet.

Upon reaching, I did ask Ben to join me but he said next time.

Went in to find Becky and friends. I guess we have more than 15 ppl over? Drank a lil while there. Mingde and I had a long chat outside the pub as I was smoking then and we also don wanna to drink so much as we drank quite a few glasses already. Mingde asked me to smoke lesser, he say it is not nice for gals to smoke. He prefer gals who don smoke. He keep cracking never endless joke abt us together but Im cool abt it cos we both know it is a totally IMPOSSIBLE THING la! But I did told him that I will quit BUT after I embark on the new career.

He once told her that he told he to leave her alone. To let herself to be able to make up her mind. Is he still following or is he not? Does he still cares? But that is not impt anymore.
Mingde and me both also agreed that Humans are unpredictable, the most scary creature in the world. I sincerely wish Mingde well la, its best if he can move on =)

Althou I have been regularly MJ-ing with the rest but this outing with them do make me feel kinda out of place / I don really enjoy myself but thanks to Mingde's companion. I donno why I will feel this way. Probably bcos Im feeling emo lately, prob bcos of KT. But as not to spoil the mood there, I stayed on.

I forgotten the pub closed at wad time but we didnt went home imm. Headed over to Club Nana. One year ago we were there also. The same people, the same club name but different feeling.

Prob its bcos we were always MJ-ing, seldom come out together to drink so less communication. On that day, we have few hours out together, to talk crap. Haa!
However within the few hours out with them, 3 different people asked me the same qns but I do not and will not have an ans to their qns. Their qns left me feeling perplex. Farn told me, don gei gei.

But there is no point for me to dwell on the qns anymore. I already have more then enough things to worry over at my side.

Went home at close to 6am. It have been ages since I stayed out so late. Overall, I have fun but I don really feel at ease

And ya, I owe Mingde 2 movies as he side bet with me that I will lose for sure -_-"

** Sat 28/03/09 **

Slept till 3plus. Received Becky sms.
MJ with the gals last night at 7pm.

My body was there but my soul wasnt. Why I said so was bcos throughout the game I kept thinking about It, my life and alot more.

I donno why but recently It has been flooding back into my memory. Is it bcos the older you get, the more you tend to regret on certain incident. Sometime the more you want to forget about some stuffs that have happened in your life, the more you will remember.
I do wonder if It is by my side, how will my life turn out?

I also thought about whether am I happy with MJ? Haa
I know thats' a very silly qns of mine. I do like it but while I was there again, once again I don feel ease. There is just some thing, some thing that make me feel so...
Nothing to do with Becky they all.

I feel the prob lies in me. Maybe is bcos recently I really feel like being ALONE. I don need crowds, I don want to tell ppl on what is going on in my life, I also don wan to know about others.

** Sun 29/3/09 **

Today, friends and family have been calling me but I choose to ignore all. The usual me, couldnt bear to be ALONE. Used to be so afraid of loneliness but I think I need some quiet time by myself. So I have been ignoring calls and staying put by my lappy to blog down my feelings the whole day and watching 最美丽的第七天.

I have finally watch finish 最美丽的第七天, Im so in love with that serial drama.
I tear while watching it. Very nice, very romantic. Watch it in youtube or borrow the disk or any website which you can find it.

Quote from the show:

" You might not win the fight but you must never ever give up fighting for what you want"

How I wish I can be like "SaSa", to be able to afford it. To go oversea, to start and live myself. Envy !!!

All the 4 actors and actress did a gr8 jobs for that show..

If only in real life, there is someone who is like that. Either like Kevin Cheng or Bosco Wong, I promised, I will love them with my whole life and even next! I promise to be good.

Emo Emo Emo...
My lil guardian angel, are you still watching over me. Do you know that I been feeling so down lately? Do you know that I have so much to say, so much....!

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