Happy Birthday 2011

Happy birthday to people close to my heart



Although time have changed, and we might not be seeing, contacting each other that often, you are still someone who are always close to my heart.

Celebrated Angela birthday on lasr Sat at St James. It was fun with so many babes present but I left early as powerhouse are too cramped for me and too many people at the club.

Its also Kevin's birthday. Liang did called me on Friday night to ask me go down but I rejected him as he only call me at 1plus am and I wasnt invited at first so no point of me going down la. Maybe bcos I also don wanna be caught in those awkward situation again but that Ah liang, very jialat de.. Say got woes wanna share with me, wanna fake me down.

I hope both of them enjoyed their bday celebration and may their life be filled of happiness and good luck!

No matter when and where, I always wish I could be there celebrating this kind of occasion with you two or all of friends but sometime circumstances don allows, sometime its just me who hold myself back =( I hope you are happy, I did what I opt to do and thats e least I can still do for you,...(,")(",)



Few years back at Mount Faber (it was also in the month of June), that was the first time i ever heard of this song, sang by someone together with some foolish actions and since then, I fell in love with it =)
#$%#&*(! I should not be thinking about the past. Sigh... But slowly and surely, I guess I will stop; I hope

a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. no matter what else has changed in you or the world, that one song stays

If you still remembers,



But I doubt you do, I doubt people remember their promises.

I wanted and needed to talk to someone earlier as I think I need some advice. Yes, there's alot of people who I can speak to but I just want to speak to that someone. I belive that's the only person who can offer me the best and unbaised solution but I donno how to tell the person I need a listening ear and I don think that person will have time for me to pour my trouble too.. =(

Vex arhhh!! 我现在是过得挺幸福的但是我很想找回童话世界的"我们"。

In everyone's past there is a love they can't get over and a summer where it all began…

Its the month of June.. Half year into 2011 already

MJ-ed with the guys last month during Vesak day. It's been so long since we last Mj together. Also, it were my first time to visited Tham new Hse.
Mj-ed with them again last Friday and I made a very classic comment.

Tham: Dice leh?
Me: 没有

And they reminded me that I was 北风北庄!
Okay lah, thou paiseh but managed to make the guys stunned and burst out in laughter :)

Coffee-ed with Ah liang on 23th May.
That guy win loh, I wasnt supposed to meet him but I think he was too bored thus he insisted I meet him by telling me he will reach my place within 20 mins and to ensure I will go coffee with him, he said: If you nv come down, its okay, I will just consider as putting him plane. So bad of him right? But overall, it was a great chit chatting session with him for a long cool 5 hours.

Sometimes I do wish to blog to share to pen down what's happening in my life but some time I just hold back myself from doing so..

I don like it when people talks about you, asking me qns about you and so many more. Im already trying my best in doing what I opt to do. Minimizing knowing, hearing, contacting, thinking..

''Sorry can we just be friends?'' is like saying ''The dog died but can we keep it"

Nice one!

There's a little truth to every 'just kidding'

" I’m scared because, I don’t want anyone else to have your heart. I don’t want anyone else you kiss, I don’t want anyone else to be in your arms, I don’t want you to love anyone else. I’m scared because i dont’ want anyone to take my place."

Happy to meet, happy to know, happy to hear!
The guys(ber and gang) might be kidding me but when they told me someone were happy, happy to see me, I was delighted yet I can only pretend that it doesn't matters to me. The guys are so -_-", kept saying Beng kept my photo in his wallet which I absolutely don blive it.
Yes, I had a short 2 1/2 hours gathering with the guys last night, ate 天天火锅 for dinner. Thankfully, things turned out well and there was no stranger present. 火锅 seems to be our fav dish, as most of the time we will arrange to meet up for steamboat. Lolz! Everyone were present aside from Daniel. There wasn't a round 2 as most of them have things on hand. I hope I'll be able to meet up with them again, soon! I really miss the days whereby we hang out together frequently! But glad that we still keep in contact and will make e effort to meet up =)

Another 20 hours, I'll be going for a vacation trip with my gfs! So excited about it =) Shop and relax!

Pay more attention to my favorite songs. Because the lyrics they sing, are words I’m afraid to say

Gathering with the guys this Friday, can't wait to see them. They were my only group of guys friends that I still keep in contact with after Q. I'll try my best to avoid if I can cos 有时候不见反而更好！

I'm kinda getting bored of not working. Thinking of going back work soon but I've no ideas what should my next move be.
Thinking of changes too; thou I really dislike changes to be made. Not happy =(

One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart you can't speak

Life is so fragile.. Too bad we cant turn back time..

I was the one who said things changed, but you were the one who showed me exactly how much they really did

I bypass the route, recalled the time whereby I used to take bus 961. It were a long journey; 45 mins bus ride, taxing but I kinda miss it. Memories flooded back non-stop. I missed the time I walked over to Eat, walked over to buy apple strudel, had the best celebrations there. Things were so much simpler and happier back then. Things also started to change at that place. Though it consisted of both good and bad memories, I feel and believe there were more happy memories. I miss it muchie, wish to go back to the past but I cannot any more. Ive been trying hard not to think about the past, been trying to look forward but its real hard.

As we aged, things seem much complex, more worries, some regrets but more wisdom? lol!

I dreamt about you again, lil angel.. but only to find myself smiling yet aching.

You can't hurt someone unless you really mean something to them

Now then I understand the above meaning.

Back from my HK trip and it was fun. Cooling weather! Not forgetting, Venetian hotel were fabulous!

＂错过就是错过了。最重要的是珍惜眼前人＂Quoted from Only You

Some things happened last week and I'm not happy at all. I'm not going to tell.
Things will change but not all. Still, I hate pretenders, I hate those copycats!

Time is all I need.

Never, ever, regret something that made you smile

Backdated..
13 February 2011
I went buffet at star gallery with cousin thereafter went up their hotel room and i started Vomite, diaherra, fever n cold -_-" appetite wasn't good also, could only take in few mouth of food.

Recently, I pen in my thoughts on the other blog.

22 Feb 2011
Went for my first Pap smear testing and I vaccinated myself with Gardsil. I received my report and its good! =)

Soon I will be heading to Hk/Macau for a 6d5n holiday.. Cant wait to step into HK after 4 - 5 years period. Shopping spree..

You love the first person who touches your heart, and you never love anyone quite that way again

Please recommend weight gaining method, I need to put on weight!
I'm only weighting at 45kg now which doesn't match my height at all..

Praying to 天公 tonight. As usual my house are filled with MANY offering stuffs.. It's gonna be real smoky in another 3hrs time

Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind. Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch

Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, you fight to let go…

如果有一天我回到从前, 回到最原始的我你是否会觉得我不错? 如果有一天我离你遥远不能再和你相约, 你是否会发觉我已经说再见?

It was better than what I expected. I went up his place with Minde and Jiayu. Initially it was awkward but I'm glad that the awkward-ness in me, dissolve soon elsewise I reckon I would have left his place within an hr time.
I get to meet his family once again :) 尤其是他的妈妈，she have always been so nice, caring n concern towards me.. Even when I was about to leave his place, she intended to send me downstairs but I rejected kindly. 我真的很感动但我又觉得对不起她因为我以前不断的伤害她的儿子而当我们又有机会能从来，又..... It's my bad but if u never make things clear how will the person know what's your true intention? I don have supernatural power to be able to predict peoples' mindset.

每个故事都有个开始有个结局，而我这个故事的结局到底会是几时还是会有转弯呢？

Drop that never ending topic..
CNY was fun as I get to meetup with friends whom I haven saw for long time. It was fun, a month of happiness fills :)

我不是不喜欢人家赌博，要赌可以但也得知道自己的 limits 也不要疯狂的赌到不知白天或黑夜

新年快乐 2011!

I feel so uncomfy by not going to Tham's place last night. Somehow for the past 5 or 6 years (除夕夜), we will be at his place to play blackjack without fail. This year, I given it a miss. Isit really time for changes?

Invitation received to Kev's place (Cny gathering cum house warming) but I'm wondering should I go or not? It's gonna be weird to go up his place and he even said that bf are welcome too! It's already gonna be real weird, awkward if I were to go up his place, not to mention bringing bf to his place, moreover with his parents around. I felt the gao wei-ness before when others was present in the usual group gathering so I do hope he won't have a chance to experience what I felt before. Neither here nor there. Duh!
Nevertheless I'm shocked and surprised with the invitation..

My first rolex

Ron gave me a surprise by booking a night at Festive hotel and something more extravagant he bought me a gift which I never expected to receive it.. A Rolex watch!

I was taken aback when I received that watch! It's such an expensive gift.. If I were to post up the pictures on FB, I'm sure there will be lotsa talks going around.. I simply hate those ppl (acquaintance) who bitch bad stuffs or should I say "sour grapes"!
Anyway i cant be bothered lah! Just wanna let my friends share the joys Ive. I do like that gift muchie but its a hefty gift to be receive when I'm only his gf..

Cny are approaching in few days time and I wonder how will it turn out to be like. Alot of things have changed, happened and I guess somehow it will be different from the past.

Boredom post

It usually happens few times in a year when I start emo-ing to myself, thinking about nonsense stuffs, fighting hard to overcome that feelings which I hated the most.

I came to know a new friend, J. Slightly older than me, happy go lucky guy, doing his master now, driving a porsche n own his own property development firm BUT this is not the main topic that I wanna blog about.. He have a Master in Feng Shui n he know palm reading!
As usual, my curiosity strikes and i started asking him Qns. He said:
Im a big spender, will be a super doting mum in future, very intelligent lady (some things I know but at times i just won't say), heaven blessed person (always there will be people helping me), career life will be smooth sailing, I'll have 2 kids in future, Ron is my 2 1/2 serious bf. He also said I'm a very stubborn and emotional person, which most of the times, it's my emotion that kills me (opportunity lose). He even said that a guy might come along into my relationship in the future but he did say it's preventable. I know all these might sound ironic but he said out one of my secret which makes me pretty "impressed"!

U won't know what is missing till it's gone.. So fight hard for it..

Anyway I also donno why I'm blogging about this. Perhaps just wanna talk about something to myself.
Eventually i didnt went to Zoo with them, i also didnt went down titanium to look for them. She asked me to go but I opt not to n I really didn't expect they will go titanium! Things really happens for a reason. I'm glad I've a very valid reason for not wanting to go titanium.

Went out with Liang for a drink earlier

I'm sick again!
Pretty pack this week, meeting michie, Q gals, BFFs this week!

Quotes

The saddest thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who mean alot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you have to let go yet u can't get through or let go.

Close together, or far apart, u will always be here in my heart

I hate looking at the stars because it makes me think of wad u told me, the stars shining brightly

Happy to know that you are happy..

Fucking tulan today.. I was at titanium earlier on and a stupid Thai gal, for no reason threw a glass towards me. Luckily it didn't hit me but my blood boiled immediately and I went up to give her one tight slap on the face thou there were ppl blocking. Nbcb, I haven been so pist for ages! The bouncer came in, drag that cb woman out. Thereafter came into the room to apologies and said they will send her back to her country by tml! So tulan! I still feel that I should have beaten her more and harder but they said, at least I have slapped her and it was a very big and hard slap. Fuck up!

The boss (kapo) and ah lam promised that I'll nv see her there again..

My heart are telling me to join them for the Zoo outing but my brain tells me, No..
Shld I go with e logical or illogical me?

Grandparents have shifted up to stay with ah boon and in order to take care of Jayden since last Monday. I'm considered as staying alone in my own house. Ofcos they will still come back occassionally.

小天使，我想你

想看你的看的世界,想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去

2009年的12月31号，我和那般朋友玩得很开心也没想要早走。去年的今天，我在一天内感受了两种心情。非常的高兴和一点的失望。偶然会回想那天的感觉。
2010年的12月31号，我又和同样的这一般朋友在一起倒数。但是今天的我想越早走越好但我不否认我也玩得挺开心的。幸好我的好朋友当天也有在她家庆祝所以我也有一个很好的理由能够早离开。很高兴能和我那些bitchy BFFs 一起倒数2011年的到来！

没想到一年能有这么大的改变，不同的感觉。有时后，看不到，听不到， 反而会对自己更好。真的怕了，累了，放弃了